It's just not fair....

I don't understand how a month ago I was writing about how wonderful David was , and he still is but now he has broken my heart. I don't think he realizes you can never change the damage of words, words are like a ghost that haunt you their all you think about in the middle of the night.. I have had my share of heartache in life obviously so it's kind of like let me just add this in, but I'm so tired of loving people only to later have them hurt me.. it's just not fair... I try to be a good person only later to find that it's never really good enough. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is to try your best and still feel like a failure. When I love I love endlessly and that's just it , I put up with a lot of unncessary hurt until I get to my breaking point, I just never thought in a million years I would feel this way because of something you said, I know that you realize now how much you have hurt me and I am thankful for that but I feel so torn, maybe if I knew why you felt the way you did to begin with I would feel more confident in our relationship because as of now all I can do is hope for the best blindly and that's just not fair. It's not fair to say you feel one way giving me no explanation why and I think that is what hurt me the most because truthfully I don't think you even know the reasons why you felt the way you did.

it's not fair to wake up when your having a better day to act as if I should not be hurt to act as if I should just accept the things you said to me as if my heart was never broken. I can forgive you but I'm not sure I can forget, and if I do will it only lead to more heartache. Love it seems it just is not fair....